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February 1, 2011

I'm still here


Hi. I bet you've been wondering where I've been since October. I'm still here, lurking about.


On November 4th I lost my dad, without warning, a month and a day shy of his 76th birthday. He died at his kitchen table early in the morning. It was exactly how he wanted to go (on his terms) and I'm grateful for that. He was my biggest fan and I have never adored anyone more than him. To say that I miss him doesn't seem to convey the emotion of what I'm feeling properly. But I do; I miss my Dad terribly and I think about him every single day.
I'm doing my best to get life back on track while still taking time to be patient with myself. I'm slowly getting there and I appreciate you all being patient with me. Grief is a peculiar journey but I'll be back soon, I promise.

34 comments:

  1. It's been a rough year for you! I hope you can come back and find some peace in your baking.

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  2. Im so sorry for the loss of your dad..Im really close to my dad too and he will be 76 on Feb. 7..Hang in there and treasure his memories...

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  3. So sorry to hear of your loss. I hope treasured memories are a great comfort to you.

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  4. I lost my father too young two years ago. Not a day goes by that I don't miss him, but with loved ones around it makes the journey manageable. He'd want you to smile. My thoughts are with you. xoxo

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  5. My heart and prayers go out to you. I lost my mother on June 24th after a prolonged illness (she had congestive heart failure). Then suddenly, and without warning, my father died on August 15th. Although they had not been together for 44 years, he died the day before what would have been their 58th anniversary. He would have been 81 on his birthday in December. He was so strong. I know he could not have stood a long illness. It was a blessing for him to go that way. I keep reminding myself of that because it was horrible for those who loved him. Grieving is truly a process. You are so wise to give yourself time. We can't expect to recover quickly from a love that is felt so very deeply. Wishing you the peace and joy that memories bring. All my best to you and your family.

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  6. What a sweet man..I can tell by the love on his face.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  7. Julia, I'm so very sorry that you lost your dad. Mine died my freshmen year of college and it still feels like last week.

    Everyone grieves in their own way, the important thing is to allow yourself to get through it...and give yourself permission to laugh and smile.

    Take care, and hold on.

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  8. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Today my dad is 86, but my mom died 25 years ago, so I know how difficult it is to lose a parent. Take care.

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  9. You've been missed! But we'll still be here when you're ready for us. =) Love you.

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  10. Julie,
    I'm so glad you posted that...I think that 2010 was a rough year all around...Mrs. McCrea passed away just before Christmas and it broke my heart. You will remember, but you will recover anad it will be ok.
    Much Love
    Nik

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  11. Julia, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you're going through, though as my parents age I fear that I'll be there too soon.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  12. I'm so sorry for your loss. I am very close to my Dad too, and cannot imagine the grief you feel.

    Take care. You are in my prayers.

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  13. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you are dealing with the loss in the most positive way possible.

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  14. So sorry for your loss. ((hugs))

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  15. I love you girly Q... here to talk if you need to. ;)

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  16. My Thoughts and prayers are with you! Thank you for letting us know about your loss! Your fans care!
    God bless

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  17. I am a lurker, but I had been worried about you. I lost my father several years ago, my mother this last may and my brother in September. Last year was a hard year, but this year we've been blessed with a new grandchild, the brother of my other grandchild whom I adore. For everything there is a season - Spring follows winter...Here's a fan that hopes for your Spring.

    God bless,
    Pat

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  18. I am a lurker, but I had been worried about you. I lost my father several years ago, my mother this last may and my brother in September. Last year was a hard year, but this year we've been blessed with a new grandchild, the brother of my other grandchild whom I adore. For everything there is a season - Spring follows winter...Here's a fan that hopes for your Spring.

    God bless,
    Pat

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  19. June in Ireland who loves to bakeFebruary 04, 2011

    I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beloved father. I lost my dad 16 years ago on the day before Christmas Eve. Not a day goes by where I don't think of and about him and miss him. Even though he isn't here in the tangible, physical sense, he is alive and well in my heart, in my memories, and in my love for him. Not even death can take that away from us. Remember him with love, and that love will remain with you always, just as your dad's love will remain with you always. Please take care of yourself, and don't stress about the blog. Whenever you return, your posts will be welcomed with open arms and hearts. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  20. But those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31.... I will be praying for you....

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  21. I'm so sorry to be reading this. My heart goes out to you as you are missing your Dad.

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  22. I'm so sorry to hear! May he rest in peace. It's been a tough time for you, hang in there, hope to see you back soon :)

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  23. I'm so sorry to hear that. It must be very tough to suffer that loss. I wish you love and peace.

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  24. Very sorry to hear of your loss. Memories of your dad will keep him in your heart forever, and someday things will seem a little brighter.
    Take care with yourself.

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  25. I just came across your blog and was so sad to read your recent entry. I am so very sorry for your loss. I'm glad that you and your dad had such a close and special relationship, and I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this terrible loss.

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  26. I, too, am sorry for your loss. I just stumbled upon your blog and can't get enough. You have made some incredible things! I saw that you took a well deserved break, but I hope you continue to share your baking experiences!

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  27. So sorry to hear about your loss. Thinking about you and your family during this time. Take your time and we all look forward to hearing your voice on the blog when you are ready. {{hugs}} - mary

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  28. I just now read your post about the loss of your father. I'm a baking blogger in Seattle also and I know EXACTLY what you are going through. I lost my 76 year old dad about 4 weeks ago. Very suddenly on a Sunday morning. The worst morning of my entire life. I will always remember every single detail of that morning and it makes me sick. I have continued to bake but nothing like I was previously. And I don't feel much like blogging about my baking like I used to. I'm slowly getting back into it but it's hard. It's really hard. My heart aches for you. I hate to see anyone else go through this same pain that I am. My dad was everything to me. Such a kind man and wonderful dad. Isn't it hard to believe that you will never see him again? I'm just now grasping the fact that he will never walk through my door again or I will never hear his voice on the phone again. Yeah, it sucks. I've heard for years now from so many friends & coworkers who have been through the loss of their father and now it's my turn to experience it. I knew it would be sad but of course I could have never prepared for the deep pain. I miss him sooo much.

    I will be thinking of you. Take care and get back to blogging when you feel like it.

    Your fellow Seattleite,
    Heidi

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  29. While i do read your blog, i guess i hadnt realized the frequency had dropped off. (stupid blog reader) Im sorry for your loss, i have been there where you are now, but i lost my sstep dad to colon cancer three years ago. Hang in there, and hold tight to the memories. Take your time, we'll be here faithfully waiting. :)

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  30. I really felt the same way. But I'm much more closer to my grandpa than my father. He was more like a father also to me. He always took me often in his Marketing business. Just like your dad, they will always be missed.

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  31. Sorry to hear about your loss.

    It's very hard to lose a parent; I just lost my dad in July, and it really stinks. Actually, that's why I've found myself in the world of cooking / food blogs - - I needed something to keep me sane.

    It's a wonderful, creative release, but not always easy as you can read here if you'd like:
    http://032984d.netsolhost.com/WordPress/?p=1077

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  32. sorry for the loss of your father. losing someone you love is tough. hope all us well.

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  33. I'm so sorry to hear about your father and I completely sympathize. I'm a first time commenter but a long-time reader and wanted to let you know that I really love your blog and you are quite a talent. I'm very glad you're taking some time for yourself to be with family.

    Love,
    Margaret

    The Bite Size Baker

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